A Question of Culture

And God Bless You Pattern Realm

This blog post is multi-faceted, because it has helped me face realities in life after 7 months of marriage. Yesterday I had a beutiful Toastmasters Club experience. I came half-hearted, grief stricken over the loss of my mother. But I came with a deflated ego because I was no longer an officer. But 16 minutes before the meeting ended the newly Installed Club President banged the gavel and took control of the meeting like it was a command post. I fell in love with that! He showed me that I may no longer be an officer, but I was still part of the team. Plus he helped me seeecause I am n longer an officer it frees me to speak more outside of Toastmasters, even go professional! So the door is wifde open. For a few hours my wife Blanca and I floated on a cloud. We had a pizza party to celebrate Mama's mystery. But within a few hours it all went downhill. Myy wife got angry, shut down and wouldn't even talk to me. I have bipolar disorder, and that, compounded with grief over losing my mother spun me almost to the point of meltdown. But then later on that night, the ice broke and we started talking. She helped me see my hypocrisy. I was becoming a part of the Degenerate Culture, not practicing the content i preach. But I had to get blunt and say I was too exhausted to fight. Before long we started cuddling and laughing, remembering why we fell in love in the first place. I learned four things last night. 1. She doesn't need a husband to play silent then come begging to her, she needs someone strong but sweet. I have to adjust to that. 2. She needs me to change my lifestyle, my way of life. That will take some adjustment and a new way of life. 3. We need to spend more time together, and I need to depend less on AI, start writing. No more depending on AI so much. 4. Sometimes the best content is lived out behind the scenes, disappear to transform. In Christ, Jimmy EYP Yesterday I had a beautiful Toastmasters meeting